There is an opening: some good news.
It seems to be more likey than not, this weekend I shall finally see my other half. It's a maybe, but it seems pretty feasible. And maybe if I'm persistent with this one, things will start looking up.
Her only problem: everyone will be at the hospital the whole weekend, leaving the house pretty empty.
In broader terms: she thinks we'll get a little too excited, and do some things she wouldn't approve of. I've been trying to get around to explaining to her that a) I wouldn't do that as long as anyone I know can walk in on it at any moment, b) just because we're alone doesn't mean we're doing things (when Steve and I are alone, we usually play video games anyway) and c) even if something does happen, at least I'm doing it safely.
She never listens to me.
She has this image in her head that I'm still nine years old. That I still wear pig tails and have no idea what a scrotum is.
I had a dream she walked in on Steve and I doing some things and went nuts. It sounds like some sort of forerunner, if you ask me. A foreshadowing of what is to become of me.
She makes me feel a million times smaller, like I can't control my own life. Like I'm not capable of making educated decisions for myself, and my parents are the only people who possibly could. Most kid's parent's accept this sort of thing. It just seems like my parents are so insecure with their sexuality, and talking about their sexuality, that they feel I need to be insecure as well. "If you talk about sex, you must be the devil."
Aren't they supposed to be supportive here? I mean, when do they realize this decision is my own, and respect that I at least use a condom, and that I don't sneak out of the house in the middle of the night to have sex in some dirty grocery store alley?
Why don't they accept that maybe we want some private time, without them checking on me every twenty minutes, like I'm a child? Doesn't she understand it's inevitable? I'm not getting high and having sex with numerous guys at drunken parties, she should be thankful.
I'd just like her to embrace this. It's something people do, and I'd really appreciate it if she'd accept this for once.