Since you've already decided I sometimes write in my diary to you, here's an entry, just for you, because I'm sitting too far from the phone.
As for the whole "I want nothing more in my life to be your friend." That, is a load of fucking shit. Oooh, I want to be your friend so badly I'll never make an effort to hang out with you. And ooh ooh, I'll pretend like I understand what someone is saying and then later I'll complain about it to someone else. That night when we talked, you understood and felt the same way, eh? B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T. How the hell do you expect us to be good friends again, if you lie to my face all the fucking time??
You've made all efforts possible to take things back to the way they were? Wrong. You've talked about making efforts. You haven't made any as of yet. Your "trying" consists of dicking around and blaming us for everything possible. You talked to me once, but I wonder how much of it you were saying just so we'd stop arguing. True, we don't make an effort to do things with you but on the contrary, nor do you make efforts to do stuff with us.
Yes, I agree this "argument" has been dragged out way further than it should have been, but you don't understand. I can't just wake up tomorrow and pretend like nothing happened. Like things are the way they were. Sorry, I don't work like that. I DON'T KNOW HOW THINGS ARE GOING TO TURN OUT. Sure, it's my choice if we're still friends in the future, but considering present circumstances, I'd like to wait a while and how things are going to turn out.
Which, by the way, is what we were doing before.